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Digest - 9 Jan 2009 to 11 Jan 2009 (#2009-10)

Sun, 11 Jan 2009

There are 2 messages totalling 47 lines in this issue.

Topics of the day:

   1. PRAYER - My mom (update) (2)


Date:    Sat, 10 Jan 2009 14:52:02 -0800
From:    Megan MacLean <xena_goddess_of_war_99@y.......>
Subject: PRAYER - My mom (update)

Well guys... it looks like she doesn't have much longer. I just got
off the phone with my aunt (she's an RN) Mom's breathing is bad, and
she's out of it because they're trying to keep her as comfortable as
they can. Despite the chemo and the transfusions... it's not going to
be long now, until, you know... I'm crying so hard right now I can't
see straight, asking for a miracle right now... oh I wish I could. My
aunt was saying that when it finally happens, when mom goes, she'll
be at pace, but it hurts so much. I thank you all for the support you
have given her - it seems so fuitle now, but please pray just once
more, that she goes at least knowing her family and her dauther
especially, love her.



Date:    Sun, 11 Jan 2009 00:04:25 -0800
From:    Megan MacLean <xena_goddess_of_war_99@y.......>
Subject: PRAYER - My mom (update)

It isn't long now, I'm afraid. Could be tonight, we don't know. In a
way it'll be a good thing, she won't be in pain any more.

It's hard to write through the tears, but I will never forget this
community of fellow FK fans (a show mom and I both enjoyed) and how
you have helped me to realize I don't have to go through this alone.

So from my heart of hearts, thank you. All of you.

It broke my heart to hear my dad in tears, because he's so strong. He
says I have the strength of my mom in me. But it is so hard to be
strong. I told mom that I love her, that dad loves her and wishes he
could be here. My boyfriend Tyson is extremely upset, being overseas
and unable to be at my side. He never even got to meet her. This all
came up out of the blue...and it was more aggressive than we ever
thought, but I am glad we got one last Christmas with her.

I came back a while ago from saying probably goodbye to mom. They
were suctioning out her mouth because there's so much fluid in her
lungs now. It's a battle for her to breathe and she's on a lot of
morphine. I held her hand and I told her everything: how I was sorry
that I wasn't as loving at times as I should have been, that I hope
to be even just half the mom she is, that I'll miss her, and that she
doesn't have to be sad - I'll go on, get married, have babies and
name my first girl after her. I told her that I wish I'd known before
so I could have done more and she cried a little- there were some
tears on her cheeks and Dot wiped them away.

I babbled on and on about how I love her and how I never meant any of
the mean things I ever said, and I said that heaven will be a better
place, because she'll be there, and that she's a part of me and I
love her.

I do feel better for saying all of that, but my heart is still heavy
and hurting. To see her as she is now... I know that when the end
comes it will bring with it peace for her. She won't be in any more
pain or struggling to breathe.

Mom lives in me. She is part of me, and I a part of her.

I thank you all for the love and support you have showed. Know that
your actions carried great effect, even if online.



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